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Look at me now (prt 2)

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Look at me

Look at me now

Why you always got to yell at me?

Why you got to be so loud?

Tell me what did I do?

Besides live my life the best I know how to

You're a part of me

Turning your back on me

Bringing me down

Look at me

Look at me now

Tears streaming down my face

And you're so loud

I wish I could silence you out

But dammit I don't know how

Why you so fucking insensitive 

Knowing I'm sensitive

Telling me I should quit

When I know that's not the answer

For this shit

When I know I'm tougher than this

But you keep telling me it'll be easier if I end it

When you know I'm trying to prevent the shit

Look at me

Look at me now

Can't even keep my head up

And you trying to make me question my God

Just because he doesn't seem to be around

Or to be found

But I know he'll make a miracle for me

Someway, somehow

You keep calling me weak and a coward

You've been attacking me for hours

SHUT THE FUCK UP!

I'm tired of hearing you attack me for hours

You've been doing this since I was a child

You hate me?

Well I hate you

For all the shit you put me through

Constant badgering in my mind

I'm fighting a war against you

I don't know if people really know what that's like

Being in a war inside your own mind

Either you win to stay alive

Or fucking die trying

Man I'm getting tired of trying

This shit is tiring

So many hours of crying

I've created monsoons in my bedroom

And I've been so loud

Hoping someone hears my heart wrenching sounds

But nobody seems to come around

Look at me

Look at me now

Can't even keep my head up

And you're trying to make me question my God

Just because he doesn't seem to be around

Or to be found

But I know he'll make a miracle for me

Someway, somehow

I can hear you now

As I write this shit out

Telling me it's an easier way out

But wouldn't that make me a coward?

It's what you been calling me for hours

Maybe the real coward is you

And I ain't nothing like you

You hate that you're a part of me

Well I hate that you're a part of me too

For trying to make me believe ending my life

Is the best thing I can do

Because that's something I won't go through with

So you think if you convince me enough

I'll finally go through with it

Man I'm sick of this shit

A war against my own mind

Headaches constantly ravaging my mind

Just want to take these pills to ease the pain

But I know if I do you just might get your way

And I'll cross the line

And overdose like you want me to

So I fight through it all the time

I'll show you how long I can fight

Look at me

Look at me now

I don't know how I'm gonna win this war

But dammit I'll figure it out

Even though I'm fucking depressed

A fucking mess

How can anyone love a person like this

I'm fucking sick of this shit

Let me smoke my weed

And numb shit for a little bit

Because you like to put me through it

SHUT THE FUCK UP!

Stop being a bad influence

I'm not gonna go through with it

I fucking hate you

Nobody knows what it's like fighting this war

Against you!

Years after years

Rounds after rounds

Fighting you all alone with no support around

And I'm still here so who's the WEAK ONE NOW!

FUCK YOU!

Look at me

Look at me now

Scared to look in my eyes

Because you see the strength coming back to life

Look at me now

Cause now I got my head up

Telling you don't make me question my God

Just because he doesn't seem to be around

Or to be found

But I know he'll make a miracle for me

He did it once

He'll do it now

Look at you now (prt 1)

Look at you

Look at you now

Can't believe I'm stuck with you

If I could I would depart from you

Look at you

Look at you now

Tears streaming down your face

Can't even move from this place

I'm sick of this shit

Why don't you just quit

And make it easier for me and you

I hate that I'm a part of you

Look at you

Look at you now

Can't even keep your head up

Always looking down at the ground

Who you praying to?

Tell me where your God is now?

You're so weak

It's such a shame

That you're a part of me

Even I want to get away from you

Look at you

Look at you now

You're so gullible

So stupid you make yourself vulnerable

I hate that I'm a part of you

I wish I could depart from you

I be wondering when will life be done with you

Look at you

Look at you now

Dammit why are you such a coward

Crying your heart out non stop for hours

SHUT THE FUCK UP!

I'm tired of hearing you cry for hours

Nobody is listening for you

They don't care about your heart wrenching sounds

It's been that way since you were a child

You sensitive little bitch

You give me such a nasty itch

Why you think nobody sticks around for you?

Trying to save the world and people

When will you realize they don't have the same heart

As you do

Man fuck you

Look at you

Look at you now

Can't even keep your head up

Always looking down at the ground

Who you praying to?

Tell me where you God is now?

Probably no where around

No where to be found

Probably sick of your shit

Sick of your sins

Look at the fucking mess your in

Man I'm sick of this shit

Hate that I'm a part of it

A part of you

If I could depart from you I would

Maybe I should

And you know I could

Ever wonder what death feel like?

Might be the perfect cure for you

You literally have nothing to lose

But this damaged heart and weak ass soul

This shit is getting old

Look at you

Look at you now

I'm fucking sick of looking in the mirror

Looking at eyes begging for help

You're so fucking helpless

Hopeless

Don't even know what hope is

Lost all focus

I fucking hate being a part of you

Fuck your feelings

No medicine in the world strong enough to heal this

Heal all the pain

You have yourself to blame

You seem to love getting played

Have your feelings all in the way

You're such a shame

Such a disgrace

Hate looking in the mirror

Looking at your stupid face

Why don't you leave this place

I fucking hate you

Look at you

Look at you now

Got nothing to say

Because I'm so loud

Look at you now

Can't even keep your head up

Always looking down at the ground

Who you praying to?

Tell me where is your God now?

 

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