God

Look at you now (prt 1)

Look at you

Look at you now

Can't believe I'm stuck with you

If I could I would depart from you

Look at you

Look at you now

Tears streaming down your face

Can't even move from this place

I'm sick of this shit

Why don't you just quit

And make it easier for me and you

I hate that I'm a part of you

Look at you

Look at you now

Can't even keep your head up

Always looking down at the ground

Who you praying to?

Tell me where your God is now?

You're so weak

It's such a shame

That you're a part of me

Even I want to get away from you

Look at you

Look at you now

You're so gullible

So stupid you make yourself vulnerable

I hate that I'm a part of you

I wish I could depart from you

I be wondering when will life be done with you

Look at you

Look at you now

Dammit why are you such a coward

Crying your heart out non stop for hours

SHUT THE FUCK UP!

I'm tired of hearing you cry for hours

Nobody is listening for you

They don't care about your heart wrenching sounds

It's been that way since you were a child

You sensitive little bitch

You give me such a nasty itch

Why you think nobody sticks around for you?

Trying to save the world and people

When will you realize they don't have the same heart

As you do

Man fuck you

Look at you

Look at you now

Can't even keep your head up

Always looking down at the ground

Who you praying to?

Tell me where you God is now?

Probably no where around

No where to be found

Probably sick of your shit

Sick of your sins

Look at the fucking mess your in

Man I'm sick of this shit

Hate that I'm a part of it

A part of you

If I could depart from you I would

Maybe I should

And you know I could

Ever wonder what death feel like?

Might be the perfect cure for you

You literally have nothing to lose

But this damaged heart and weak ass soul

This shit is getting old

Look at you

Look at you now

I'm fucking sick of looking in the mirror

Looking at eyes begging for help

You're so fucking helpless

Hopeless

Don't even know what hope is

Lost all focus

I fucking hate being a part of you

Fuck your feelings

No medicine in the world strong enough to heal this

Heal all the pain

You have yourself to blame

You seem to love getting played

Have your feelings all in the way

You're such a shame

Such a disgrace

Hate looking in the mirror

Looking at your stupid face

Why don't you leave this place

I fucking hate you

Look at you

Look at you now

Got nothing to say

Because I'm so loud

Look at you now

Can't even keep your head up

Always looking down at the ground

Who you praying to?

Tell me where is your God now?

 

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"Letter to Lord"

( On April 27th 2016 @ 10:34P.M - Driving down 95 as the raindrops clash onto my wind shield, each raindrop leaving it's unique mark of mini rivers that ran down mimicking the tears I've cried in this lifetime. It would stop...then start...stop....then start....so I write...)  

"Letter to Lord"

The well runs dry

No water coming to my home

Thirsty seeds planted

Beneath the soil

Waiting for new life to grow

As these dark sins cling onto my soul

From the world of where I was born

And no matter how hard I try

I'm still tainted like a hungry whore

Heal my pain

In Jesus name, Lord

Heal my pain

Oh, heal my pain

Heal my pain

In Jesus name, Lord

Heal my pain

Oh, heal my pain

I have betrayed every lover

But not before I was a good woman

Just like my mother

I've probably healed then killed many spirits

Along the way

Unintentionally of course

But still all in the same

I'm sorry for dancing for Lucifer

He fell in love

And now he keeps calling my name

Making it hard to stay away

Even though I know his dirty tricks

And wicked games

Have mercy on me

I never meant for it to turn out this way

Heal my pain

In Jesus name, Lord

Heal my pain

Oh, heal my pain

Heal my pain

In Jesus name, Lord

Heal my pain

Oh, heal my pain

The heavy burdens keep coming

One after the other

Keep me safe give me strength

For my ex Satanic lover took all my armor

As I made love to his sins

That my crying soul now harbors

As dead fish wash up on the shore

Representing all the dreams

That could of been born

All because I fell in love with his demons

As we danced the night away

But all along I was dancing alone

Please forgive me

Have mercy on me I'm calling your name

And you can hear me I know

I had a friend say a prayer for me

And I never heard a prayer for me before

Heal my pain

In Jesus name, Lord

Heal my pain

Oh, heal my pain

Heal my pain

In Jesus name, Lord

Heal my pain

Oh, heal my pain

 

(...heal my pain...heal my pain...heal my pain...heal my pain...)

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